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Friday, 27 April 2012

  • Been so long...

    It's been quite some time since I've last posted on Xanga and I might as well start again today. I must admit, two years ago I didn't realize how much my life would change so drastically but then again, it's like that for most people. Hmm...I think I'll use this blog as a means to retell my life events rather than a random junk blog. I guess in a sense this post is an introduction. Haha. How odd.

Friday, 08 January 2010

  • If I Could Sing A Song It Would Be About You

    I made this free verse poem becuase was feeling so complicated about some boy i liked
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    I Miss Him And I Don't Miss Him
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    What is wrong with me?
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    This is not good
    Because I don't know if he likes another
    I don't know if I can like him or not
    If I should or not
    I want to talk to him now but I can't
    And when I talk I want to be with him forever
    But I can't be with him forever because I can never have him
    And what I can't have is what I want
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    Is that bad?
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    I see him everyday but I cannot see him forever
    I'm near him but I cannot touch him
    Both of us are different but we are one of the same
    He speaks to me gently but speaks to others with feeling
    I am not wanted by him but is wanting him
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    What if love, loves another but can never love?
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    Is It So Bad For Me To Want Someone I Can't Have?

Sunday, 29 June 2008

  • The biggest mistake

    On this certain day it is June when coming back from Muskoka I think Tuesday 11 

    On this certain day I felt incredibly hyper like I couldn’t care less what could happen.

    On this certain day I was working in the art room for drama

    On this certain day I was talking more casually with Tristan and Wayne.

     

    On this certain day I felt like saying HI to Brandon Chen not caring about Narcika

    On this certain day on the stage I said HI and I got ignored

    On this certain day I was angered and Narcika was glad

     

    On this certain day I was very determined to make him reply

    On this certain day I got him to say it

     

    On this certain day I sat beside him with Melissa at my right

     

    On this certain day the stage was dark

     

    On this certain day I was bored and said “hey Brandon”

    On this certain day he looked shyly to the ground and said “hey” partly looking up

     

    On this certain day I got Brandon Chen to say “HEY” to me which Narcika couldn’t

    On this certain day I got him to talk to me

    On this certain day we were starting our first day on the stage practicing the play

     

    On this certain day the stage was dark

    On this certain day I felt joy from his single word

     

    On this certain day it was lunch time

    On this certain day I was walking down the hall to drink water

    On this certain day Brandon Chen was walking down the other way towards me

     

    On this certain day our eyes met

    On this certain day he talked to me first

     

    On this certain day I talked back to him hyperly

    On this certain day we were talking about the biggest spoon EVER

     

    On this certain day ever I wanted the spoon

    On this certain day he stood beside me and I walked to him

    On this certain day I held the spoon he held

    On this certain day our hands touched over lapping continually

    On this certain day I called him an “ass” and forgot how it ended

     

    On this certain day I felt the shot of an arrow pierce though my heart

    On this certain day I fell into a deeper in love without noticing

     

    On this certain day I made the biggest mistake ever.

  • my result of a flower quiz

    i did a quiz about flowers today. my flower is the calla lily and my opposite is the water lily.
    the calla lily means magnificent beauty
    and
    water lily means perfect beauty
    now ain't that a pair.

Saturday, 03 May 2008

  • it all started with a gunshot

    My message:          THIS ALL HAPPENED IN A DREAM I HAD ON THE NIGHT OF THURSDAY FEBRURAY 14TH 2008. BEFORE THIS DREAM I HAD A DREAM ABOUT THE SAME PERSON FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS AND THEN HAD THIS INTERESTING DREAM.                  ~~~~~~~THIS STORY CAN’T BE CHANGED AT ALL COST BECAUSE IT IS A DREAM YOU CANNOT CHANGE A DREAMS STORY NO MATTER WHAT WHEN IT ALL READY HAPPENED.  ~~~ but i did change the persons name for my safety

     

     

    I was just ready to go out side my house when I suddenly heard a gunshot. I looked out and seen two people bleeding on the floor, one (a girl) isn’t moving on the floor and the other who is getting up slowly. The person that shot the two was no where to be seen. My door was widely open and that person has seen this and slowly walked over holding on to his neck with blood coming out. He had walked inside and I didn’t stop him, instead I waited until he gotten inside. Before he actually got inside I asked if he was okay or not and he said he was fine and said he needed to use the phone. I asked “hey did you get shot, are you okay?” he never said anything but only groan in agony. I asked several times and finally he gave me a reply. “Ya…groan…but it only skinned me on my neck”, after he said that I finally touched him because I seen tears flowing down his cheeks. I hugged him, my arms going around him, his back against my chest, and my hand holding his face up. I suddenly felt like kissing his wound and I did. Suddenly everything turned dark.

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      I was walking through the hallways of a hospital. I was wearing a pair of sunglasses to cover my eyes, a dark maroon hoody and dark blue jeans. I was heading towards a certain room when I suddenly seen someone walking in front of me….it was Dark. The boy I kind of liked and the friend of the one I was visiting. I was afraid that he would realize where I was going so I slowed down in my walking and put my hood on so he couldn’t see who I was. I was afraid I would ruin the person’s reputation. I walked very slowly and Dark finally walked inside the room I was heading for. I walked a bit closer to the room but far enough to avoid suspicion. After some time Dark came out and walked he then looked at me and walked on again. When I finally thought it was safe I sighed, took off my glasses and looked up. There right in front of me was…..Dark. He was looking right at me with his bright eyes.”….Rena…..is that….you….?” That was the first thing he asked of me. I looked at him and the first thing that popped into my head was ‘oh shit!!!’

     

    I had to answer that question so I said in my casually way “ya, it’s me”. He looked a bit shocked but kind of happy as well. I felt a lot nervous being there just the two of us talking. We talked about a lot of things and while we were talking, we were also walking near the person’s room. He asked me why I was here and I said “my ‘friend’ is in here.” He asked “what happened?” I said “…‘He’ got shot” not mentioning where he got shot. “It’s a guy?” he asked a bit angrily. “Huh?” I looked up a bit shocked by his question ‘was he jealous’ was all I thought. I decided to answer that question “yeah he is, why?” I wanted to get the right answer but he gave me the wrong answer. “No reason” I was disappointed by this answer. We said bye and he went off. While I just stood there watching him leave but without realizing someone was watching me on his bed eyeing me with rage. I looked in front of me and there was the door I was to enter.

     

    I entered the room it was dark. I looked at the bed and the boy was there he was eyeing me without stopping. I said hi to him and he didn’t reply. I hadn’t moved an inch from the door yet then he finally spoke “close the door will you” I did close the door because I was actually kind of scared by this guy at the moment. I stood across him leaning on the wall. We stayed like that for a while and he kept staring at me. Then finally he got tired of it and spoke “what took you so long?” I thought that that was a question that kind had an answer to itself already but I answered to it anyways. “Oh, umm, I was talking to someone outside” I hesitated when I answered. “And who was this someone?” he obviously knew this ‘someone’ but I answered anyways as well. “It was…Dark” I heard a loud thump he had banged the table beside him. “WHY WERE YOU TALKING TO HIM!!!!” he yelled out angrily and it had hurt my ears. I felt very defenseless but then I got angry because he had no right to yell at me like that. “Why do you have a problem with me talking to him I haven’t talked to him for a long time I mean seriously he has been trying to say hi to me since the beginning of school and I always rejected it and now I actually got to talk to him for so long honestly the only time he talked with me from before was for a stupid question that lasts less than a minute!!!!!!!!!!” I let out a lot of steam and started to cry a lot. I was right beside him when this all happened then I turned around and was about to leave, when I suddenly felt a hand holding strongly on my arm. I turned around and looked at him. His head was looking down with shame but his hand still held strongly. I told him to let go but he wouldn’t just when I was angrier and was about to yell at him I heard the sweetest thing, “I’m sorry, I never knew, I didn’t mean to make you of all people cry.” When he said that I broke in tears because I felt so guilty and without me realizing my arms were around his neck but I held him gently making sure not to hurt him.

     

    I finally relaxed enough to stop crying. I sat done beside him on a chair we talked about a lot of things. About school, life and friends we made a promise not to talk to each other for a while especially at school, we don’t know each other we are to be complete strangers. At first he didn’t want to do this but then I explained that not many people would accept the fact that we know each other. That didn’t help he kept on refusing I liked the fact that he cared about me like this wanting to be together even at school but I managed to get him to say yes. The reason was if we were to be seen together talking like this at school all these evil girls will come up to me and go medieval on me without you looking no matter what to tell them to understand. I asked him “what would most guys do to me when they figure us out?” but before he could answer I said “man it’s so hot in here” and then I took off my hoody. He was completely eying me; I was wearing a really short sleeved V-neck t-shirt. I asked him what he was looking at and he said nothing really shyly and slowly looked away. Then I finally caught on and said “oh I know what the boys will do with me” in a real seductive voice. I came close to his face and whispered something. He turned around quickly only to see me bending down on the bed smiling and said “joking” he blushed a lot. When I came back to my senses I realized that I had to go. I told him and I put my hoody back on and was about to leave when I suddenly felt a hand pull me down. When I completely came back to my senses I had just realized that this person had just locked lips with me……I blushed a lot…..WE blushed a lot…..it became dark.                           

     

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    I WOKE UP ……. THE END!!!!!!!!!!!

    * honestly i actually wrote this the mintue i woke up *

     

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